revival

School starts again for me tomorrow. I don't know whether to be excited or not all I feel right now are the blahs. Kids are still home until next week which has made me feel out of whack. I usually get a few days to myself before I go back, not this year.

Why revival? This blog has sat for a long time and maybe I need to revive it since I am reading blogs so people will know something about me when I comment. We have 6 kids this year 5 are mine and W's but one is a friend of my oldest whose family had to move because of the military. He is a senior and we felt we would give him a place to stay if he wanted. He is now here. We now have two almost eighteen years olds R and M both males, L is 16 and she is our band geek. N is 13 and he is trying to figure out where he fits in K is 10 and thinks she can do everything L can, and C is our youngest at 6 with an attitude that never quits. all robust and a lot of fun.

People think we are nuts to have 6 but adding one more is not a big deal. What is a big deal is that we have 4 teens eek!

I went back to church last Sunday for the first time in years. Not since I have been with W. I was honestly expecting this instant reconnection but it wasn't there. I went to a Unity church which is very different than I have ever been. I am not sure what to think right now but I know I want to have something back. Maybe now isn't the time for church since we live in an area not open to having open gay community.

That's it for now folks thanks for stopping by.

forever and a day

Yup this is it! We leave this weekend for our summer vacation! We are also doing something that we have wanted to do for a very long time. Will post more when we get back.

last entry of 2006

Here it is the end of 2006! Where has the time gone?! This has probably been one of the more difficult years in along time more because of internal cleaning out of old crap and the turning over of the basic way I think. A personality challenge to say the least and one that is continuing to change. It leaves me to think of changing this blog. New name new title. I will have to think on that, for for now I have my beloved and our kids. I cant ask for more than that. I wish everyone a positive outlook on the coming New Year and many blessings to come our way in 2007.

I have a lot to be thankful for and while I may not list them here I know them in my head and my heart.

This Anger

This anger inside of me...
Comes from long ago
Far to young to be
And not old enough to know

This anger inside of me....
Came to be
Because of someone I knew
I had no clue

Stripped of something before its time
I had no say
I think he is a swine
Someday he will pay

Today I have much rage
I want to be free
When can I see
The end of the gage

I have an important day coming
I want it to be something!
Free from this crap
and on to a new rap

I have a spouse
who does not think I am a louse
I also have a special friend
who tells me I am near the end

I am looking forward
But right now it feels awkward
Blessed be the day
I can finally shout Hooray!!

September is flying by

Wow Didn't realize it had been so long since the last post. Things are busy here in the household.There is band/school/dance for people on Monday nights school/football games on Thursday nights and band on Friday nights. It will be this crazy until the middle of Nov and then calm some as the holidays come! Ha!

Kids are all doing well, no complaints here. I turned 38 last week and was informed by the oldest that he thought I was turning 40! Not yet son!

This weekend is homecoming...and the oldest first offical date sigh is he that old already?! Yes he is since he will be 17 next month...

Ok that's the quick update from here

Sick Moms

Yup this week has been the week of sick Moms. Both of us are exhausted for coughing, sneezing and lack of sleep from being sick. The kids are okay and we are working on getting better slowly. It doesn't help it is a cool 97 outside and high humidity to boot the heat index to over 105! Labor day weekend is fast approaching so we moms are looking forward to getting some extra zz's for awhile.

Hard to believe it is almost sept and my birthday month. A whole year older yuck!!

Football and Tights

I picked up Robbie yeterday from football practice and he informed me that he needs to buy some tights. I looked at him and said "tights?" To which he replied "yes Mom tights". Okay all Moms out there I am sure you thought of was girl tights at first? LOL! By the way the type of tights he need are something they wear under their football pants.

reflecting

I have wanted to teach children since I was a child. My Nana was a schoolteacher and I remember helping her grade papers on the weekends. We as grandchildren always got pencils and pens with our names on them. I always thought they were cool.

I am due to graduate in the next 2 years, have been thinking of doing Special Education for awhile. Along comes all these new laws and now any subject that a child learns must be from a teacher certified in that area. So this would mean I have to get certified in all possible areas I would teach social studies, math, reading, english, science, etc. I will never get out of school! I need to step back and decide what I should do.

They're Back...!!!

Yes all 5 have returned from summer visits to the dads' and we are back to having 5 kids! Yikes!! My gang had been gone since the middle of June and Wen's kids spent about 10 days in July. We are having our last quiet day until....Thanksgiving most likely.

Tomorrow is Liz's B-day the child is turning 15 WOW!!! It is alo the start of band camp for the older 2. 10-12 and then 1-3pm. Everyday until school starts. Robbie also starts football camp next week as well at a jolly 6am. Do they really think parents want to be up this early?! I sure as heck don't!

Wendy also starts back to school next week. Wah!I have LOVED having her home this summer. I love her more the longer we are together. I have to admit it can be incredibly tiring at times having 5 kids here but I couldn't imagine my life without her.

So our summer is basically coming to an end. Where the heck did it go?! I have enjoyed it and feeel sad that school functions are rapidly coming upon us, but it also means cooler weather will eventually come back lol!

new dishes

We were away this past week and of course stopped at an outlet mall that had a corelle outlet store! The big deal is we have been wanting a new dish set but needed one that would feed 7 people in one sitting. Plus looking at patterns online just doesn't cut it. I have always used Corelle heck even my grandparents had Corelle when I was growing up. The set I had was from eons ago and we wanted one that we liked.

So here it is this is the Callaway design! I love it and Wendy likes it too. That is important too!

Update coming

Ouch I didn't realize it had been that long since I blogged. My kids-the older have been with their dad since the middle of June. They will be home next weekend. Wen's gang has been gone since last weekend and are due home tonight. We are coming off a week to ourselves and just got back from our own mini-vacation. The highlight was the Faith Hill/Tim McGraw concert in Houston last night. Will post more as we get settled back in to our routine.

family pic day

Yesterday was family picture day Here are some of the photos from there. Some are quite funny and others came out pretty well. It was also our 61/2 year anniversary lol. Our older 2 leave for WDW this afternoon. Keep them in your prayers please.

Bush is at it again

Well I know we have all seen what Bush is doing to distract the American public again and trying to shut up the conservatives. What ever happened to keeping religion out of politics? Last time I checked there are many of us out there who believe in God and live according the way we believe we should. No one has the right to condemn us. If I want to have a certificate that says we are legal I want that right. I don't care about the word I want what is entitled to us. Open your eyes folks we aren't going away.

Blogging for LGBT Families Day

This post is in honor of Blogging for LGBT Families http://mombian.com/2006/06/01/family-day-entries/

We have families some big some small some just beginning the journey. We all have the common bond of wanting to be parents. Our children reflect a greater part of what and who we are. Our children go through the same thing every child does. Why on Earth would anyone want to ostracize these kids? Wendy and I have 5 we are a blended family and co-parents. We take care of these children yet because of society we need to hide a lot of the time. I have to deny I have any kind of relationship at times because of ignorance. It is so damn fustrating. Oops gotta watch how we act in public so we don't draw attention to ourselves. It takes a lot out of outings at times and most of the time we can't fully relax and just go. Stop staring and start educating. We are just like everyone else we don't want extra attention we just want what we are entitled to -benefits and security for our families. If one of us dies we have the right to bury them without a mound of paperwork. I have a right to have my name on this house even if I am not working.
We are real and are not going away.

Summer is coming

Summer is coming. Wendy final day with students is tomorrow followed by a workday on Friday and then she is done. Our kids get out June 1st which also happens to be the day I graduated from high school 20 years ago! Yikes!

I start back to summer school on May 30 and need to do well this summer. I had a bad Spring semester so I owe it to myself to do better. My kids are going to be gone with their dad this summer this is the older 3 and frankly I think it sucks. I care care of them all the time and want the time to spend with them. The downside of being divorced is custody but I am much happier with Wendy that I ever was married. That is the good part LOL.

So my goal for the summer is to get myself organized, I found out I have ADD recently and need help to get that in check.

Yes I still need to post a new pic of the thinner me but I need a haircut first LOL. Soon.

Dontcha hate it when...

You are in the mood and its the middle of the day and no chance at having fun yet?! We all know it happens with kids and sometimes you can sneak away for abit and sometimes you can't. *Sigh* Right now it is one of those non sneak away times. I can't help it if I find my woman irresistable at times lol. Love you babe!

Look alikes

I wonder how many couples look alike and are asked if they are related. Wendy and I get it a lot lol and it drives us crazy at times. However it does work when we don't want people to know our real relationship. Unfortunately we have to do that at times. sigh. This is a picture of us from last summer in Orlando so what do you think? I am in the front Wendy is in the back. The picture is deceiving because I have lost about 30 lbs since then and Wendy has as well.

Sick household

It as been a week of everyone literally getting sick including the Moms, not fun when Moms are sick at the same time. I think everyone is on the mend except for C who is still running a fever at this point. My other half is currently sleeping because she too has fallen to the bad cold. Its hard to believe that May wil be here tomorrow and then gone again soon as well.

School is winding down for me and the kids get out the beginning of June. Another year gone. C will start K in the fall wow. Before they were in school it seemed the year took forever now it flies. Just wow.

The Past

The Past

Sits on the sidelines until you think it is gone
Then comes back with a swagger
which sometimes feels like a dagger

You run but can't hide
It's eating you up inside
Haunting memories near and far
Leaving your head feeling slightly ajar

Anxiety is next to visit
and takes grand hold
You start to wonder if you will live to feel old
Life starts to unfold

Fear is trying to be your best friend
but I refuse to bend
Go away I say
I don't want to play
Go and stay away

Better I am becoming
A new me is forthcoming
Still scary at times
As the hill I try and climb
To get rid of the swines

Sick day

You can the it is almost the end of the year for school for everyone. TAKS tests and my papers are over and now everyone as decided it is time to get sick. Well its ok except for my other half who unfortunately has no sick days left and is feeling pretty cruddy as well. It will pass soon and hopefully everyone will be on the mend soon.